johns heart break

Stone cold, in the middle of a circus
But the lights are all on you
Try to fake a smile
But the curtain draws on you
When the crowd begins to cheer
It's a sign that the end is drawing near
Presenting the world
When the lights go out

The tears fade, right before their very eyes
But yours begin to shed
Fake it for a while but the coursing darkness treads
For behind each casting art
Is the image of a man who's torn apart
Escaping the world
When the lights go out

Fear not, I have descended
Before you even knew
I only told them, "I love you"
The smile you see, can't comprehend it
But I died too long ago
So every time I start the show
I drop the act and away I go

Stone throws, for a friend with a message
But that message failed to send
Too many times I've bailed, cause the show's about to end
Like an intermittent break
Like a purgatory sending me to shake
I walk off the stage and the lights go out

You would have never believed me while smiling
You would have stopped to intrigue when I'm frowning
You would have helped just to shake it off
But it bled me dry
Maybe you're not supposed to know
But would it kill to just remind yourself I'm gone?
I'm broken again, as the lights go out

Fear not, I have descended
Before you even knew
I only told them, "I love you"
The smile you see, can't comprehend it
But I died too long ago
So every time I start the show
I drop the act and away I go

By the time you hear me cry
I'll have lost you through thousands of voices
All blinded by the sounds
No remorse for me is found
And I am not meant to be chained to the ground
I have no soul
Have no goal
Have no promises
Yet the mask is sealed away!

So every time I take my leave
Oh darkness, please. Oh just leave me be
Holding on for life
I can't let you know I am alive!

Fear not, I have descended
Before you even knew
I only told them, "I love you"
The smile you see, can't comprehend it
But I died too long ago
So every time I start the show
I drop the act and away I go

By the time this little number ends
I'm gone
And you can't cure my mind